My ebbs and flows aren’t unlike a class 4 rapid.

I’m tired again – not just physically but mentally and emotionally. Spent. Tired of giving and giving and giving and people taking and taking and taking.

Picking up the phone when it rings almost always results in a half-way sincere “Hey how are you? Let me tell you about ME…” which is fine on the whole because I care, but man there are days that the human race is just too fucking selfish and needy and I wonder why I keep ending up here.

I’m fighting a bit of a cold no doubt brought on by the body follows mind philosophy, so I worked from home most of the day yesterday. Seclusion in a warm place that didn’t involve fluorescents, where the people are just words on a screen and an X I can click to remove them from my day instead of a voice on a phone or a human at my desk. Me me me.

Now I’m just rambling and upon reflection, I’m no different from them.