I looked and looked but couldn’t find any pictures of me as a kid with an eye patch on.

That was a joke. It was very subtle, so I’ll give you a moment to read it again.

Instead, you get this lovely shot of me at 4 years old sporting an inward turning eye and some hott octagonal glasses. Now if you can imagine how sassy I was as a 13 month old with glasses strapped to her head, I’ll welcome you to my infancy, my toddler years, and my childhood. Glasses have always been a part of my life.

The eye doctor visit last Tuesday started with the same small talk as any other. I’ve been doing this since I was a wee potato eater, and am eerily ease in doctors offices. Small talk, lots of jokes that catch them off guard, random questions and low blood pressure.

We talked about the freckle on the back of my eye, about the sty from last fall and how my lower lid never really recovered and finally about my increasing frustration with my lack of sight in my left eye.

Doc says he can’t do anything anymore, and he suggests I not bother with glasses to ease the burden on “the good eye” anymore, and I realize I’d never really known what made the bad one bad.

So I asked him and we talked about my adventures as a pirate child and both my brothers eye surgerys and my astigmatism and on and on and then he just breaks it down and says I’ve probably been misdiagnosed most of my life and that I have Refractive Amblyopia.

It sounded fun so I said it a bunch, fast. Amblyopiaamblyopiaamblyopia.

He laughed and told me it stems from childhood and that it’s a condition where the nerves that take the message/picture from your eye around to the back of your brain where they’re interpreted (which I was happy to point out is not a very efficient route) don’t form properly. He tells me the message my left eye sends is bad, so my brain just ignores it.

Somewhat relieved that my bologna had a first name, I went home and Googled. Relief didn’t last, and I was increasingly upset at what I read and what it meant for me and the way I identify myself/with myself…whatever.

So here’s how I’m workin’ it:

My new Indian name? Lazy Eye.

Bonus points because it lets me do things like this without hurting myself.

P.S. Also fun to say? Amberopia.

This post has 20 comments.

  1. Tulio
    07 Feb 07
    2:50 pm
  2. bosskat
    07 Feb 07
    5:22 pm

    Dear God and baby Jesus! Those pictures are something else! The second one startled me. You Lazy Eye… Me Twice Lazy Eye – say you got nothin’ on me! Me eye wander more than sleepwalking donkey.

  3. Tiffany
    07 Feb 07
    8:37 pm

    The ability to make that face? Totally worth the eye.

  4. Kyle
    08 Feb 07
    10:02 am

    Your lips are very pliable.

  5. Maigh
    08 Feb 07
    12:39 pm

    @ Tulio…yes! I was a wee pirate.

    @ bosskat…you know it. Just thinking about your wandering eye makes me want to punch you. What?

    @ Tiffany…I like to think so. I also blame the face on too much idle time in a hostile climate.

    @ Kyle…eh. Yeah. Pliable chicken lips. BOCK!

  6. I thought your Indian name was Aka-taka-doo-dah Ay-so-koma-so-wan-ta.

    Please advise.

  7. Maigh
    08 Feb 07
    5:07 pm

    I was 5 and I’ll never live it down…such a great song.

  8. It’s on my iPod.

  9. Maigh
    08 Feb 07
    7:03 pm

    Whawhawha!?! Me, or the origional? Must. Have.

  10. Oops. Was kidding. Sorry to get your hopes up.

    I don’t even have an iPod.

  11. Maigh
    09 Feb 07
    10:03 am

    Damn you, woman!

  12. Tulio
    09 Feb 07
    10:32 am

    What song is that? The name doesn’t sound familiar.

  13. Maigh
    09 Feb 07
    11:20 am

    It’s from an Alaskan Indian (Eskimo/Tlingit/Aleut…?) song/story I learned as a kid about going to sea and killing a seal/walrus and bringing it into the boat and taking it home. You acted it out (the paddling the boat, throwing the spear, pulling the catch into the boat) and that was the chorus.

    Though I think it was probably more like ukka than aka. Ukka tukka dooa asa komma sowanta…

    I can’t find any trace of it on the internets.

  14. Tulio
    09 Feb 07
    11:53 am

    Is this it???(Scroll down. on the page. If you need it can can almost usually find it.

    http://www.mamalisa.com/blog/?cat=35

    Atakata Nuva Eskimo hunting song

    At-a-kat-a nu-va,
    At-a-kat-a nu-va,
    Ah mis-a-day, mis-a-do-mis-a-day.

    Hex-a col-a-mis-a wa-ta,
    Hex-a col-a-mis-a wa-ta,

    At-a-kat-a nu-va,
    At-a-kat-a nu-va,
    Ah mis-a-day, mis-a-do-mis-a-day.

  15. Maigh
    09 Feb 07
    12:13 pm

    That’s awesome!

    I have to admit I didn’t look very hard but wow, what 29 years will do to a memory. I really mangled the lyrics when I was 5…

    You’re my new hero.

  16. Tulio
    09 Feb 07
    1:25 pm

    No problem. Glad you enjoy. Now you will have to video you singing it and doing the actions to the song.

    Now that would be funny.

  17. She’s especially good at the kayaking part. Seriously.

  18. D
    10 Feb 07
    11:00 pm

    Dang aw dang, even with one crazy, lazy eye you be a purdy lady.

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